Missed my shot (Bummer warning)

This is more of a vent so if you are in a really good mood and don’t want me to mope you down, don’t read.

You have been warned.

Sometimes it’s hard not to feel like I missed my shot.

I try to stay positive most of the time but that’s not always easy to do; this is especially true when I start down the rabbit hole of looking for jobs or opportunities on the internet.

I knew the things that I was interested in when I went to college but I didn’t have the guts to actually pursue those interests back then.

Now, I’m married with kids and a job with medical insurance, and…I’m just where I am.

To be clear the married with kids and a reasonably secure job is a good thing, but my brain doesn’t always think so. And, I swear on my life that the next person to tell me to find my passion is going to get slapped in their face.

Anyways, I know that there are people who somehow manage to develop those skills that they missed out on later in life but I don’t have the money or the time or the focus. I’ve struggled with this for over a decade and it doesn’t help that I have manias on a…